Control Top Tights...Not Your Mother's Foundation Garments

Today I'm wearing a super cute outfit: turquoise blue dress, taupe sweater, chocolate brown textured tights, brown boots and a super cute scrabble tile necklace...but I am feeling totally gross. I am wishing for those foundation garments that make you look perfectly smooth and fabulous underneath your clothes...something a little bit like this...

To make me look a little bit like this...

If only my control top tights would stop cutting off my leg circulation and then strangely bunching at my ankles I could feel a bit more like a femme fatale!

After lunch I was even musing over the benefits of the full corset...no need to worry about falling over after lunch...your corset will hold you up! I wouldn't ever have to worry about slouching again if I had one of these lovely numbers...

But seriously...undergarments really are the foundation of how we end up looking on the outside...which has me wondering...what are the emotional "foundation garments" that we need as women to be our best selves and feel like it? What kind of feminine armor do you put on to know that you are lovely and beautiful on a daily basis...whether physical or emotional? This control top girl is looking for a new foundation!

Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-changes...

I have lost 25.4 pounds since February 9th. When I started really addressing losing weight back in October I weighed 42 more pounds than I do today. In October I could barely fit into my size 28 jeans (it was painful to say the least). I am now wearing a 24 and they are loose. I ordered some clothes in a size 3x (smaller than I was before) from Old Navy and most of them were too big! It has been years since I have been this size. I also have some pretty great measurement changes since February:

Arm: 2 inches

Hips: 2.5 inches

Bust: 2.5 Inches

Waist: 4 inches

Thighs: 1.5 inches

Abdomen: 4.5 inches

Even with all of this great progress I continually find myself doubting my ability to succeed at this. I feel the threat of failure daily and it feels more like a promise than something that I can avoid. I am really scared. I can see myself becoming a little bit bananas too. I have been ridiculously careful with points and even menu planned to the brink of deprivation of the joy of really tasty food. This is not how I want to live nor how I want to feel.

Up next I am working to bring back the balance that I know I am searching for. Today I had a lot of tasty food...Abelskiver, cheese fondue and Coq au Vin. Such delicious food and I didn't even use all of my daily points! I did this without tracking during the day but I was very aware of how much I was eating and stopped when I felt it was enough. All of my purposeful measuring and attention to serving size is paying off. Go me!!!

Change is supposed to be a good thing and I can see that I am moving towards my ultimate goal. At the same time I am struggling to keep my mind focused on what I have accomplished and that I am still moving forward. I find myself wishing for a display board where I can get updates on what is happening internally. It would be great to know for sure every day what is happening inside. Then I would know if what I was doing was making a difference.

Thank you so much for your support and for being such amazing people that I feel safe really saying what I feel. Onward...to more changes!

Upcoming benchmarks:

10%...6.6 more pounds...any ideas for a celebration?

50 pounds...mid-August dinner at Chez Panisse